K to tha Aryn

Wow! I totally forgot about this thing. Wow. Reading it now after so long. I'd forgotten about so much. Daaaaaaaaaang. I can't believe how different my life is. For example, I am sitting on a USN Ship right now. Waiting to go on watch. This is weird. Today and tomorrow are going to suck something fierce. Three watches today (they are five hours a piece) so no sleep, then working all day tomorrow, ending in 2 hours of extra duty because I'm a fricking 'tard. I'll finally get home at around 7 and probably fall into an exhausted coma the moment I walk in the door. Jeez. Everything has been...stressful lately. I feel a little disconnect from it all though. It's not that I don't care...I just don't let things get to me the way I used to. Oh well. I'll update this old thing again when I get home tomorrow. If you know, I really don't pass out as soon as I get there. Ciao my journal friend.

I've been meaning to update for a couple of days, I just haven't gotten around to it until now. Today was pretty darn good. I called out of work. I told them Shelly fell and broke her ankle, and I was at the hospital. Shelly and I pigged on Mickey's Dee, and watched some Linsay Lohan movie. It was fun. And Russel came over at 6ish, and him, Stacey and I walked up to Taco Bell...holy crap. I eat a LOT of fast food. Shelly picked us up and we went to Giant, and we got some fizzy apple juice. Then we came back and did it. That was the awesomest part of my day. I've been having to work a whole bunch lately. It stinks. Not the working itself, I just never have any free time. Being responsible is hard. OH! And Johnny and Dana are coming up to visit for a week. They're going to a Hatebreed show the 26th, (thats why Johnny will be here) and staying until the 30th. It will be so much fun. My brothers are both super cool guys. I think it might be a little weird for Johnny though. It's really different here. He should have fun. Get to meet Dana's friends, and I'll parade him around to show him off to all of my friends. It will be nice to have Dana home too. Everyone misses him, especially my dad. He's always calling. Its so cute. Stacey misses him like crazy too. OHOHOH! AND, Russel and I will have been dating for a year on the first. Cool huh? Hopefully he can stay the night new years. I forgot to ask my dad, but it's still a few weeks away. I sat and talked with my dad for a long time tonight. He showed me how to sharpen my knife. Meh. I can't think of much else to say, and I want to go read. Georgey Martin is a good writer.
- TwinkleTwat

I heart Russybooboo. Work stinks. Mom's tomorrow. =)

Meh. I just got out of the shower. It feels like 3 years ago. My house smells like apple pie =) I don't like the melatonin stuff. At all. I hope I make it to work on time. I should have washed my pants last night. I want Kris to come over.

Gah! Bank's are confusing. I signed up for a checking account with THE BANK OF AMERICA. It's America's bank. But my dad says I should use the Navy Federal Credit Union. I dunno. I don't care all that much. I really don't want a bank account at all, but I suppose its better. I did get a supercool looking card in the mail. Visa baby. I don't get my check until tomorrow, so I can't use it until then. Also, I have to do alot of running back in forth to do the whole direct deposit crap. Haven't these people heard of fax machines? Do I look like a faz machine? I sure hope not. Uh...let's see. I seen a poor little kittie get hit by a car the other day. =( I felt really bad about that. Also, my Grandma is in the hospital because she's fat and had a bowl obstruction plus two hernias. The hole they put in her stomache to fix that stuff got infected so she had to go back. My parents boss, Melvin...his daughter is dead/dying. She had surgery for a historectomy, and ended up dead. They brought her back after 15-20 minutes, and she's on life support..but today they're going to pull the plug. If she can't make it, she's dead, and if she does, she's better off dead. MASSIVE brain damage. =\ Poor Melvin. Work is going. It's still boring as hell, but I can manage. I never seem to have any money either. Oh well. I haven't heard from Kris in awhile. I wonder what she's been up to. Me and Russ are okay. We sort of had a fight last night. I'm not entirely sure how I feel now. I'm not really mad or upset or anything. I know he feels horrible, and that in turn is making me feel bad. (Even though he should feel a little bad)I suspect things will move along like they always do. Gosh. I love him. Halloween is coming up. That should be fun. I hope I don't have to work. HEY! Laurie just called me. She's on the phone. RIGHT NOW. BEH. OH! I asked for next Friday off, because we're going to go the Goatman show thingy. This Friday is Russels ALONIZ show. That should be fun. Oh. And it's the US Navy's birthday. =) Happy birthday, harbor full of hi-tech armed ships. Laurie says she hates me for not coming over to watch Employee of the Month.(My dad so thoughfully bought a bootleg version from his fence at work.)And I have a DEP Meeting next Saturday. Boring. We stand in the hallway and listen to Petty Officer Smith lecture us. He's an ass too. Well, dear journal, that is all for now. Until next time.
-K to the Aryn

I REALLY REALLY need to go to bed on time. So today was my first day of work. Yay. It really wasn't all that bad. Kind of boring. My drawer came up 31 dollars short. =\ I don't know why either. I didn't steal it, and I know how to count. That's what CVS deserves for putting me on the register in the first five minutes I started working there. I hate the hours. I work from 4-5 to 11. That means no time to see Russel. He says that's almost a good thing, it will be like an enforced weaning. I think its crap. My days off this week are Wensday and Thursday. Oh well. I go to the 'grown-up' doctor on Wensday. But I think Shelly and I will have to take the bus since her van was stolen in all. I think I'm going to see if I can get a prescription for some sorta sleeping aid. I suck at doing it by myself. Sleeping that is. I'm great at doing IT by myself. Goodnight.
-Cuh-air-uhn

I AM SO GODDAMNBORED >=(

Two things:
1) Shelly had her van stolen last night
2) I have an interview with CVS at 4
-Karyn
YAY

I really need to start going to bed at a decent hour. Laurie asked her sister about the job at CVS. The supervisor dude comes back from vacation tomorrow. She printed my online application out and put a post-it with her name on it, to get his attention. Isn't that nice of her? I can't friggin' wait until I start working. I need money, and something to do with my day. Oblivion can only take up so much time.
-Karyn

Hey! Look. Updating. So...yesterday was pretty much one of the best days ever. Stacey, Russel, and I went to go see The Covenant. The movie wasn't very good, but we had fun watching it. Russel is an amazing boyfriend. Love.
-Karyn
(I don't feel like writing anymore)

Yesterday was really nice. I spent quality time with Russyboy. =D! Today = super tired, though. My dad woke me up earlyish this morning, and we all went to Coscos. Just got back a few minutes ago. We bought the hugest shrimp I've ever seen. My family is...bleh. They're so silly. Also, the Sunday School I was supposed to get a reference from doesn't open until later in the year. My dad said I can ask Jim for a reference. Say that I worked for him over the summer. I'd like to, but I have already told them I didn't work anywhere else. Oh well. I do believe I am going to read a little, or sleep.
-Karyn
PS. Russel is amazing.

So I come home from CVS with Kris, and put my cigarettes on the table. We go upstairs. She leaves. An hour later I come down to smoke one, and they aren't there. They aren't anywhere I'd been when I had them in my hand, Kris doesn't have them, and I didn't lose them on the way home. I suspect my dad or Shelly took them, but I have no idea why they would do that. UGH! It's really pissing me off. I was supposed to go to Mapes today to get my medical done tomorrow, but they didn't have me on the roster. So tomorrow. Yay. Russel is sick too. =( Poor guy. He said his temperature was 103 this morning. He also said the doctor told him not to go to school tomorrow, but I think he is anyway. =) He's so silly.
-Karyn

So today/yesterday/lastnight I was gone away on Navy business. Which really means I took my Asvab, and stayed over night in a hotel with a bunch of other kids. My score, you ask? A fucking 81. Which is really good. Not as good as a 99, (the highest score) but the best score all day. So now I can get any job I want when I get sworn in. But my guy, Powers, he forgot to get my dad to sign some paper saying the doctors get to look at my bod-ay. So instead of getting the physical and medical done, I got to come home. At like 8. After I'd been up for four hours for absolutely no reason. It was alot of fun though. The people weren't what I was expecting, and that is a good thing. Now the plan of action is to get some refrences from Parkdale tomorrow or Friday, and on Monday or Tuesday go BACK to Ft. Mead and get my shit done, before getting sworn in. Also, I get to pick a job (YES, I scored high enough to do whatever the fuck I want) and find out the date I get shipped off. Russel came over today. It was soooo much fun. I love him alot. He hits me alot though. Which is I guess a good thing, because it shows me my place. =)
-Karyn

Hey, look! Another update and it hasn't even been a week yet! So, my dad did get his promotion. Isn't that wonderful? Today is Val's birthday. We went to CVS at exactly 12 so she could buy a pack of cigarettes. Kris bought condoms, and we had fun with one. Er...I just realized how that sounded. We took one out of the wrapper, and flung it at various members of my family, before going to put it on a nieghbor's car. Yay. Uh...Laurie and I are going to stay the night at Val's G-Ma's with her tomorrow night. She is staying over here tonight. I'm super glad for my dad. He was really upset because he thought that he hadn't gotten the job. But he did, and it's put him in a really awesome mood. I've been in a bad mood for the last couple days, and I keep thinking that I'm being a super bitch. No one seems to mind if I am. Maybe it's just me though. I miss Russel. I was with him most of the day, but we didn't get very much time alone. And I won't see him at all tomorrow =( I can't believe the summer is almost over. Bleh. Okay, I am going to watch Romeo and Juliet with Val now.
-Karyn

Yeah...so...time for an update. I'm sick =( And my cat is trying his best to kick me out of the chair. Russel is on vacation. I hope he is having fun. I miss him already. Isn't that sad? He can't even be gone a day without me wasting away. Things have been pretty good. I got into a huge arguement with Val and Laurie that lasted a good 5 hours. But we kissed and made up. Kris came back from Natalie's today. Hoo-frickin-rah. I think I'm overly jealous of her. But Kris is always putting something like "I love Nat, and I'm going to miss her" in her journal, and all she says about me is "we hung out a little today" I can understand if she doesn't want to hurt Natalie's feelings by publicly annoucing her love for me, but I'm not made of brick. It does suck that she's choosing to humor Nat rather than say she likes me. Ah well. Love hurts. Except when it's Russel love. Then it is the most wonderful thing ever. Because he is the most wonderful boyfriend ever. Better than YOUR boyfriend. My dad is having trouble at work still. He doesn't know if he's going to get this job or not. He said he was even looking for a 'safety job'. He is getting too old for the kind of crap that they give him. I'm gonna be big in the Navy,and hire my dad as my do-it-all guy, so I can pay him as much as he deserves for once. It is almost two now. I think I should go to bed. Meh. I wish Dana would leave already. He's my brother, and I love him, but lately I haven't liked him too much. He is so mean! Not that I'm Miss Pleasant, but jesus. I only mess with him because he has to be an asshole to me all the time. Plus, he's in my room. I like the den...just not enough to want to live in it. You know, sometimes I have very serious doubts about going into the service...but then I get ahold of myself. It is my LIFE. I need to do something with it, eh? Besides, the Navy needs me. I think I'll do them alot of good. =) G'night
-KayRUN!

Yeah...so news. Dana is moving out, and I'm moving in. Yay. Uh. Alot to tell, but I'm tired, so I don't think I'll get all of it. We're going to the movies on Friday, to see Clerks 2. Get to me the mysterious Guntha. ;) Krissy's Mr.Boyfriendguy. Kris worries me. She hasn't been eating or sleeping properly. Idunno. Today was kinda weird. Russel came over for a while, and I think I might have been being a little bitchy. I didn't mean to though. We talked about it, so everything is okay now. Sanded a whole freaking bunch. Making a bed that I won't get to sleep on for a month or so. Every littlest thing has been really stressing me out. I feel like I'm on the verge of tears every other minute. It stinks. PauliePaul's brother died the other day. He was only 18. It isn't fair that so many uber-young, hard working, honest, YOUNG people are dying. And I feel a little guilty about whining, when Kris and Paul and their families are going through such a hard time. That sounds weird to say 'a hard time'. It isn't like it's just some rough spot. =( Meh. I am all weirded out. My emotions are going screwy. I'm scared silly about the Navy, my dad is having a hard time with this stupid job thing, I'm moving back, and I think my mom is upset about it...Dana is moving there. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I've got two homes and I dunno how to...I guess regulate. Is that even possible? Oh well. I don't want to write anymore, so goodnight. I might update tomorrow, or possibly friday night.
-Karyn

Today was pretty interesting. Sam and Val woke me up at around 12, and we went over Roberts house for a little while. It was nice seeing Val some more, and Sam again. Kris quit smoking for about 15 minutes today. Walked to the nursery to see if Matt was there and got into some paltry arguement with Russel that lasted a good 2 and a half hours, he stormed away twice, but we made up. Heh..boy did we make up. Anywho. Matt came over later and taught me how to play Slide. I'm almost certain my dad smoked some Mary Jane today. Before he went to bed he was telling me to keep quiet(because apparently I get over-excited and a bit loud)and tapped my forehead, and I smelled the pot on him. Lol, too bad I don't smoke anymore. I wouldn't feel at all guilty coming home high now that I know he's doing it. I did find a film canister more than half full of it a couple days ago in Shelly's drawer, but that doesn't mean it was my dads, or that they were even smoking it. Five pages left in the book series I'm reading =( I talked to Greg's ex today too. She's upset because he put nakie pictures of her on his LJ. I looked but I didn't see any though. Uh...what else? OHOHOH. Krissy's job. Gonna walk her to it tomorrow morning at 6 freaking 45 in the MORNING. *sigh* The things I do for love ;) Yep. So that means I should be going to sleep. But I'm not gonnnnna. Well, I will in a little while, just not right now. I need some friggin minutes on my phone. I think Kris, Val, Natalie and I are going to see The Omen friday afternoon. Funfun. KAYBYE.
-The K.A. of K.K.R.A.

I'm about to go to bed. But I thought I might update first, since I haven't in awhile. Well, except for that 'I love him' about three minutes ago. So...the funeral. It was a funeral. It was sad, and seeing Kris cry just about killed me. I feel so fucking bad for her. There isn't anything anyone can do, and that just makes it worse. Val is here. Russ, Laurie and I went to get her from DC on the metro yesterday, and it was a buncha fun. We sat around and ate pizza. Went to the movies with Russel, Emily, and Paul today. That was fun too. I like Emily alot. She's nice. So is her mom. Um...I'm not going home until next weekend. Anyone want any kittens? Oh, and I love Russel, so I will NOT stop kissing him just because other people are around. If it grosses you out, don't look. I'm sorry our perfect love makes you queasy. G'night.
-Karynlove.

I love him.

You know...before, when I sat up all night doing absolutely nothing, I could chalk it up to an inactive social life. Now, I don't even have that excuse. I prolly should go to sleep, but I don't want to. When all you gotta keep is strong, move along, move along like I know you do. So Angela is due today. Not that it means much. Who really has their kid on the day it's due? Man...Lucy Lawless sure is something. Xena. Kudos for the whooping. I'm bored. And a little tired. Just got out of the shower, and goddamn my hair smells incredible. It felt kinda weird talking to Laurie and Craig yesterday. It's not that I don't enjoy their company...I just don't really want to get involved into that scene again. Not that it's really a 'scene' or anything, but there is pressure, and I'd rather not have that pressure around. And it's not as if they're a bunch of stupid stoners, I don't mean that at all. Iunno. Different situations have different demands. Ja know? Especially now that I see firsthand how retarded it is. It was a little akward with Kris and Paul too. Made me feel bad. I like hanging out with them both, and it would be awesome if everyone were comfortable doing just that...but idk. I hope Kris doesn't think I'm being insensitive to her feelings. It sucks so bad for her. Even more so these past couple days. Dunno if I should just comfort her, or make her laugh, or get her mind off it, or let her have time to herself. Tried all of those things. Meh. I hate seeing her upset. Bleh. It has been fun, despite all the depressing crap. I'm soo friggin glad Kris and I are 'back together'. She's alot of fun, and she makes me feel more like myself and normal. Plus, we make each other giggle like 8 year olds. I've gotten to see Russel almost every day I've been here, which has been awhile. I'm so thankful for that too. It sucks when I'm in VA missing him. =) He's so pretty. I love him. OH! AND HE'S CUTTING ALL HIS HAIR OFF...today. I was about to say 'tomorrow' but then my brain kicked in. Gonna be crazyweirddifferent. It's raining. I think it's that tropical storm passing through. Not really sure though. Stupid global warming. Sending hurricanes and tsunami's to kill off poor countries. Yep. Going to bed. Or to watch t.v. That sounds like a better idea actually. Later peeps.
-Kuh-air-uhn.